Well, it looks like I may have come to the end of the road. It may literally take an act of Congress to help me to become a nun at this point, and since God could make these obstacles of mine disappear with far less than that, and He has chosen not to, then I really must come to grips with the fact that maybe He was never calling me in the first place.
It has been a rough day. I am completely devastated by the finality of it all, after so many years of longing for Him in this way. And even though I am convinced that HE put this longing in my heart, His silence and inaction speak louder than words, and it is simply too late for me to enter on April 29th. Absent a generous donor willing to take on my school loan, there is nothing left to do and nothing left to give. I have given everything I can think of, and done everything I can think of, and He simply does not want me, at least not for this.
Soooo….I don’t know that I will be writing here for awhile. This has been a long journey and I think it’s time to rest awhile.